2015 Realizations

We've reach the end of the year again and usually I write my resolutions or things I look forward for the coming new year. But not this year. Honestly, I don't like 2015. This is a year of changes, of loss, of challenges, of doubt. It made me question life, what to believe, what to be. This is a hard year for me and so came the realizations. So let me sum all of it in some of my favorite quotes.

1.

This is the year my father died. You think we'll be okay by now but I still remember him all the time. Every tiny bit of memory I have with him can sometimes brings me to tears. :( Sabi ko nga sa ate ko, pag pala namatayan ka ng mahal sa buhay, hindi nauubos ang luha mo. And I miss him more now because New Year celebrations are one of his favorite occasions to celebrate.

2.

Yes I let my son watch TV. I let him play iPad. He throws tantrums and he doesn't want to go to school sometimes. I get mad at Riley sometimes. I am not the best mother and realizing that made me enjoy the journey more. I'm allowed to have mistakes and I don't care what other people say about my parenting style. I love my son and that is the most important thing!

3.

We all look for validation in our lives. And most of the time, we don't get it. It made me feel less of a person. It made me feel insignificant. But then I realize, I'm not competing with anyone. I don't care if people do not appreciate what I'm doing. I just want to do what I need to do without thinking what other people might say.

4.

I still meet people who upon learning that I'm a single mom makes me feel inferior. I don't take it personally but I turn away from those people. I turn away from all the negativity simple as that.

5.

Feeling Cinderella lang ako. Hehe. But honestly, this is what I TRY to live by everyday. To have courage. And be kind. And it's hard! It's hard to have courage. It's always a battle within me. It's hard to be different. It's hard to speak out my mind. I don't know why. And there is being kind. Being geniunely kind to different kind of people is easier said than done. It's hard to be nice all the time especially when that person doesn't know that word. But I'm trying, I'm trying. 

2015 has taught me all these. As I'm sure I'll learn more in 2016. But what I do know for sure is to just live one day at a time. To enjoy the moment while it last. To show love for the people who matters most. And most importantly, to have faith in God no matter what life brings. Have a Happy New Year everyone.

Only the Best

I came across this quote through Rica Peralejo's blog and I got inspired to make a blog out of it too. Some people think that when you're single it is either you're undesirable or unpretty or unlovable. It is not a happy feeling. It put shame and pity to some. It makes them feel less of the person that they are.

But there is nothing wrong with being single. In fact, you have more time for valuable things when you are alone. Take that time as a chance to discover your passion. To develop friendships. To enjoy the comfort of your own company. To help others. To devote your life in a good cause. The possibilities are endless! Don't wait around for men to affirm you are beautiful. Nothing would be more beautiful than women who is confident about themselves. Don't wait for men to give you flower. You can plant your own garden. Don't ask for security. You are stronger than most of them. And don't waste your time with someone who doesn't know how to appreciate you with all your quirkiness and splendidness. Women are made by God to be LOVED!

I'm guilty of all of that before. Being a plain girl, very few pursue my affection. Not having many choices, I thought any boyfriend would be enough for me. I rush into things. Pero hindi dahil nagsabi ang isang lalake na mahal ka niya e siya na ang the one for you. Hindi pwede ang pwede na. (San ko nga ba narinig un?) Don't settle for someone who is less than you deserve. Don't settle for the sake of settling. God has reserved someone really A-MA-ZING for you. The right man will find you at the right time. If he didn't come, then you are destined to single blessedness and that's not bad either.

You can choose to stay single not because you're undesirable or unpretty or unlovable. You can be single because you are worth any man in this world. Single ladies out there, you deserve only the best!

time vs money

My philosophy in parenting. And who needs expensive toys and top of the line gadgets when all this little man needs is a box and a little imagination? He is so easy to please when it comes to toys! 

World's Teacher Day

The Hand Holders: A Tribute To Teachers

There is no job more important than yours, 

no job anywhere else in the land.

You are the keepers of the future;

you hold the smallest of hands. 

Into your care you are trusted

to nurture and care for the young,

and for all of your everyday heroics,

your talents and skills go unsung.

You wipe tears from the eyes of the injured.

You rock babies brand new in your arms. 

You encourage the shy and unsure child. 

You make sure they are safe from all harm. 

You foster the bonds of friendships,

letting no child go away mad.

You respect and you honour their emotions.

You give hugs to each child when they're sad.

You have more impact than does a professor,

a child's mind is moulded by four;

so whatever you lay on the table

is whatever the child will explore.

Give each child the tools for adventure,

let them be artists and writers and more;

let them fly on the wind and dance on the stars

and build castles of sand on the shore.

It is true that you don't make much money

and you don't get a whole lot of praise,

but when one small child says "I love you",

you're reminded of how this job pays.

-author unknown

Vision

I love this job!

If you have twitter and you follow Kuya Kim Atienza, you will know how he always mention "I love this job!" in his tweets. I find that inspiring. I have never felt that way in any of my previous jobs. For me, it's all work. It's like dragging my feet every day and I don't feel any satisfaction. But last Tuesday, while I was going home from my tutor, hurrying up to avoid drenching in the rain, unconsciously I thought "I love my job!" Seriously. I don't get paid much or have the well-behaved boss, (I work for children under 13 years of age!) but I am happy and contented with my job. This is where I am supposed to be. That's how I feel right now. Or maybe in a few months my mind would change, lol. But right now, I am loving my job and it doesn't matter if I am an ordinary teacher. Or a celebrity like Kuya Kim. Or the President of the Philippines. If you love your job, then don't hesitate to express it and shout it to the world: "I love my job!"

Close your mouth and OPEN your arms!

In other words, stop nagging and just hug your child when they are in trouble or have problems. And you will get a positive response from your kid. It works for me and my son. :)

ANYWAY, ANYHOW

It's Thursday again. I promise to write what inspires me every Thursday because this is the day that I was born.  One Thursday evening a beautiful baby came into existence and the world was never the same again. Anyway, ANYWAY is what inspires me today! :p

I felt that nobody read my blog. But I WILL STILL BLOG ANYWAY! 

Hakuna Matata!

Lately, I am having dilemma if I should go back to full time work or continue working part time. I want to save money because I know time flies so fast. I can't just depend on someone to cover all my expenses. Plus my son's father just inform me that he lost his job. Even if he finds a new work, I want to be able to provide for my son's needs too and I want to pitch in in our expenditures. But working would mean leaving my son for at least 8 hours and I don't know if I am ready yet. :(

But when I think about it, I am still lucky! Even if my tutor job or my teaching job or my online shoppe doesn't give me much and my salary doesn't even reach the minimum wage, what matter is I HAVE work and I love what I am doing. There are times I am discourage and thought of quitting. But I will continue to be where I am until God directed me in other directions. God, after all  is my anchor.

And my reflection for today is this:  

My heart tells me to be with my son until he is big enough to understand why his mama needs to be away for work. Until then, I will just work part time. I don't need to worry. Or to think too much. God will provide!

Grotto of Our Lady of Lourdes

Our annual Bisita Iglesia yesterday leads us in Grotto of Our Lady of Lourdes in San Jose Del Monte.

At the back of the church, we did the Station of the Cross. It is in a hill and a very spacious field. I feel more close to the nature because there are trees everywhere. It's a good exercise and a good penitence. For me it is more realistic because it's like how Jesus was crucified - in a hill called Calvary. It made me reflect more on how good and loving God is. Despite our sins, God loves us so much. I pray I'll be worthy to be called His daughter. 

Hope you had a meaningful Holy Week!

Farewell, Steve Jobs

The death of Steve Jobs, former CEO of Apple Inc., brought a lot of grief among nations. This man is responsible for IPod, IPhone, and iApps such as ITunes and many more. I do not have any of the the said gadget at the moment but I'm sure how great that piece of technology are. He sure inspired a lot of people. Farewell, Steve Jobs, your legacy would forever be remembered!

This are all Steve Jobs quotation and my FB wall are swarming with these wonderful quotes from him.

"The only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it."

"Be a yardstick of quality. Some people aren't used to an environment where excellence is expected."

‎"Innovation distinguishes between a leader and a follower."

"Sometimes when you innovate, you make mistakes. It is best to admit them quickly, and get on with improving your other innovations."

"You can't just ask customers what they want and then try to give that to them. By the time you get it built, they'll want something new."


Steve Jobs biography here.

"Why Women Cry..."

A little boy asked his mother, "Why are you crying?" "Because I'm a woman," she told him.
"I don't understand," he said. His Mom just hugged him and said, "And you never will."
Later the little boy asked his father, "Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?"

"All women cry for no reason," was all his dad could say.
The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry

Finally he put in a call to God When God got on the phone, he asked, "God, why do women cry so easily?"
God said:

"When I made the woman she had to be special.
I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world, yet gentle enough to give comfort.
I gave her an inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that manytimes comes from her children.
I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives up, and take care of her family through sickness and fatigue without complaining.
I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all circumstances, even when her child has hurt her very badly.
I gave her strength to carry her husband through his faults and fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart.
I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly.
And finally, I gave her a tear to shed. This is hers exclusively to use whenever it is needed."
"You see my son," said God, "the beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair.

The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart - the place where love resides."

STOP Complaining

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* A friend of mine sent this email and somewhere in my self-centered mind, I am embarrassed. I’m one of those people who would always complain when things don't go my way. I’m the type of person to seek for someone or something to blame when things get out of hand. Tsk tsk. I know I’m pathetic. It’s easy to not care when you’re drown with your own selfishness.  I wish this message would touch everyone’s heart as it has touched mine. Just be thankful with what you have. And STOP complaining!

If you think you are unhappy, look at them

If you think your salary is low, how about her?   If you think you don't have many friends...   When you feel like giving up, think of this man   If you think you suffer in life, do you suffer as much as he does?   If you complain about your transport system, how about them?   If your society is unfair to you, how about her?   Enjoy life how it is and as it comes Things are worse for others and is a lot better for us.

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